Warning.... this is going to be a far from friendly post. It may or may not be directed at you, and if it is, than you may not want to read it.
To whom it may concern,
So called friend/relative/Christian/non-Christian, you have been a part of my life for much longer than I should have let you be, and your opinion of me up until this point has mattered entirely too much. So I just want to tell you right now, from this moment on I officially don't care what you think of me, or if I please you.
You said some things that messed me up pretty bad because you were trying to "help" me and for the longest time, I believed that you were right. I just realized, that you were not right, in fact you were very very very wrong, and the fact that I beat myself up over your opinion of me because you treated me like I wasn't good enough, says more about how jacked up you are than how jacked up I am.
I refuse to let your thoughts, words, actions and deeds affect who I am anymore. You have been like a link in a chain that has held me captive for too long and I think I realized that I am holding the key. I officially let you go today. I still love and care about you but I am done holding onto you. I am done wondering if I am good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, or if I can sing good enough.
You have put down my talents, my weight, and my general being for too long, and I want you to know that you're "help" is no longer needed.
To think how many days and nights I spent crying, and feeling bad about myself because of things you said. Well I am stronger than that now, and I don't feel the need to prove it. So the next time you try to 'help' somebody maybe you should think about what you are saying and how it is actually coming across... I have known people who have committed suicide for less.
The worst part of all this, is you think you are in the right.... and you will probably always think that because you are such a hypocrite, and so full of what you are doing, and how right it is that you have never taken a moment to look at yourself, and I mean really look at yourself to see if you had actually done something wrong. But you have, and I am not the only person that you have done wrong too. Think about that the next time you open your mouth to "help" somebody.
Sincerely,
MOVING ON.
